Help me. Im depressed. Help?

I'm 16 and depressed. I’ve had many thoughts of killing myself. I'm starting to think if my depression gets worse I might do something, I might kill myself. I have tried several times to kill myself but no luck. Reason of depression, I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I’ve never had a girlfriend or kissed anyone, or I’m unsocial and I feel like my life is nothing. Others are more successful than me. I just want someone to love that’s my age, someone who understands what I’m going through. I want someone to hold and caress. I’m not taking anything for my depression. I haven’t told anyone about my depression. I can’t remember when the last time I ever smiled. My parents are nice, but they ask me questions that have nothing to do with me, almost like they don’t care. I don’t want any answer’s like: call the suicide hotline. Or damn kid your messed up. Or get help. No I have no one to talk about my depression with. I just want to die.