Monday, December 19, 2011
Is going on strike (in marriage) a stupid idea?
I am so fed up and just out of ideas. I am a young woman married for almost two and a half years now to my husband that I love dearly, but most of the time seems completely indifferent to me. I work so hard: in nursing school, working full time, and trying to keep up all of my house duties about 97% of which I do completely alone. My husband goes to school full time starting this semester, in a really tough program, and as we agreed he left his job to do, doesn't do any thing else yet complains all the time.I cook, clean, and do all of the shopping. And I am exhausted as well as shown absolutely zero appreciation. I have spoken with him countless times about helping out more, but that doesn't go anywhere. I have try to explain it to him the excessive amount of pressure I am under taking on the role of sole financial supporter and trying to do well in school and that I need him to understand how much I am doing and give me a little more credit and support, that too is fruitless. I am able to very clearly and carefully articulate my concerns, but I FEEL LIKE I AM TALKING TO A BRICK WALL! He enjoys but complains that I am too affectionate, because I kiss him when I come home and like to cuddle up to him on the couch and holds hand when we walk together; that is the way he always was with me from the time we first met. He has never been one to say 'i love you' or do those sweet romantic things, but I tell him that I don't feel loved and I need something from him on occasion just to know he feels the same, as I tell him that all the time and saying it back to me isn't the same. I am becoming increasingly depressed, and he says when he finds me crying alone as I do sometimes 'You can cry all day, it isn't going to change anything'. He chalks everything up to cultural differences as he is from another country (so apparently people in Africa don't cry?), this is mostly crap because he used to be more affectionate to me and I know other people who don't act that way.He is down right mean... Yesterday we had a big blow out and I didn't make anything for dinner in the morning when I left for school I didn't wake him, so I don't know if he made it on time and now he is pretty much ignoring my existence. I think I want to keep this up, don't know if it will result in anything I thought of just focusing on my school work and letting him fend for himself, I won't cook, I'll let the dishes pill up, not put his things away, etc... What do you think? Might such a move at least show him how much I do? or would it probably be in vain?
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